Investments

I bought a maternity outfit, so I'm sure I'll miscarry tonight. Well, obviously not, but sometimes it seems like investing anything would do it. Of course I have already invested in maternity vitamins and fancy sparkling juice to go in my wine glass, so it was too late already.

I spent $34, and got chocolate-coloured pants and a tan faux-swede wrap top. It's a little decolete for work, so I'll pair it with some kind of mock turtleneck shirt. I have a meeting tomorrow for which I have to look a bit more than business casual, and I'm down to two pairs of non-yoga-esque pants that fit, and zero blazers that do. I purged my wardrobe of fat clothes a little too effectively, and although I *do* intend to pull the maternity wear out of storage, pronto, the thing is that everyone at work saw me in those clothes all the time and might well gaze upon my belly wonderingly.

And, frankly, I wanted something that doesn't pull when I sit down. And it was on sale. So there. It does look a little loose, but nothing about it screams pregnant, and I think I like it quite a bit, despite it not being the requisite black.

Haunting the maternity shop was interesting; the staff thankfully did not recognize me (why should they; plus my hair is red now). But I was asked whether I wanted $400 in samples from Huggies and Similac and whatever. Aha! I said yes last time! I found the source of the diapers that keep showing up in my mail crowing about the next stage of life for my dead baby!

I said no. I did not elaborate on why.

No word from the doctor yet but the ultrasound is booked for Friday, the one that shows either a blob with a beating heart, or no blob (or it could show two blobs, but I think we're safe from that).

I feel a weird combination of nauseous and hungry, and I was craving junk food (which I did last time), but resisted.

Breakfast: two slices of whole-wheat toast, glass of milk, bowl of fresh fruit from deli
Lunch: chicken and vegetable stir-fry with rice
Snack: saltine crackers, thus far; one cup of hot chocolate
edit to add: Dinner: one farmer's pie (potatoes, onions, cheese all stacked yummy), salad, garlic bread, gingerale, and two onion rings stolen from Carl's plate