3 am adoration

Yes, he pooed at last. Quite a normal soft poo and not stinky like the last one; real breast milk poo. I sort of hope he starts on a more normal cycle now, but this may be his normal cycle.

Today was a bit crazy due to lack of sleep, on the adult side, but on the Noah side it was mostly a day of delights. He's looking around more and lifting his legs up off of surfaces and occasionally finding his hands with each other. I lose time in a new way now - staring at Noah and realizing 10, 15, 20 minutes have gone by. He's a whole person, as Lyria said, and I cheerfully take on the next 20+ years in getting to know him.

I wore him in the sling today; I don't really trust his wee head and neck to it yet so I just let it carry some of the weight while holding him in my arm. He seemed to take to it, which I hope continues.

He started in on the fussy/pre-colicky behaviour right on schedule at about 10 pm, after an attempt at an extra-long feed that we gently pre-empted, since he seemed to be sucking more for comfort than anything (quite frantic comfort at that). Lyr put him in a cross-cradle hold across our bare belly and let him take a few more sucks at the nipple before adjusting him a bit so he was against the breast but not really in a position to actually feed. Then we rocked and sang and he quieted down and sort-of slept: he didn't relax completely and his breathing was still pretty rushed.

Once he seemed to go into a deep sleep we tried to put him down in the co-sleeper but despite making it a ten minute transition, he woke up abruptly and wailing. So we repeated the cross-cradle hold move, and he went to sleep again. I held him on the couch until I was really afraid I'd fall asleep that way (and pretty much did), at which point Carl took over and held him until 1 am, while I slept a bit. Then he woke up for a feed, and his poo, and some playtime, and some adoration and love, and now it's 3:40 am and I shall slip back into bed.

I enabled non-blogger comments and welcome to people commenting! I definitely won't take Noah just anywhere while he's dependent on breast milk for his immunities. It's a really hard balance between having little moments of sanity and connection to our community, and taking the time to establish our nest and keep him really safe, for sure.